Go Time

I've wanted to be a writer since I was five years old, but much of what I wrote between now and then were short stories or three pages of randomness or really awful yet therapeutic poems. And for all those years I craved to be writing something that I could not wait to sit down and work on every day. Even though I was always writing I just didn't have that one idea - that one project I couldn't stop working on.

The real problem? I just never had an idea with enough meat to it. I wrote random things because there wasn't one thing I actually could devote all of my attention to.

Until now. Probably nearly two months ago now I got this idea, and I don't know where it came from. I only know that it does have enough meat to be novel length and that I can't stop writing it.

Yesterday was my birthday, and it was a wonderful day. Everyone at work was incredibly nice, all of the people I loved contacted me, the Rangers won on a pinch hit triple with two outs in the ninth. And still when I went to bed at 1AM because I had to get up for work in 6.5 hours, I was disappointed because with all the birthday craziness I hadn't had time to write.

I don't know if this book will be good, or if it will get published. I can only make it the best I can and hope. But last night I realized that, if I was in any doubt before, I will finish this book. This is something I spend my day craving to write. I've waited sixteen years to feel this way about something I'm writing. It's go time.

Has anyone had a similar experience? What have you done when you haven't had anything you absolutely were craving to work on?